For some reason, it has taken me years to start a blog. I did one post and stopped short. It seemed like another chore to add to my list, yet I wanted to do it. Worries about whether I would be able to keep up with it, would I be inspired, and finding the time to do it kept creeping in. Plain and simple, the main thing that stopped me was fear. Fear of not being perfect, fear of being judged, fear of not being inspiring enough. Fear of wasting mine and others time. Silly. Stupid. Fear. (False Evidence Appearing Real.) Especially since on most days, I don’t care what others think of me. Either they like me or they don’t. I don’t stop being me for those who don’t; I just spend less time with them. If people don’t like what I have to say, they don’t have to read my blog, right? Those that do, will. I hope…
The other thing that stopped me, was feeling that I “had” to do it. I’ve had several people approach me with the idea over the years, telling me I “should” do it. “People want to hear from you!” and “It’ll be great for your coaching business.” My inner little rebel cringes and shrinks away at people who “should” on me with ideas, even if they are good ones. I think I just dislike being told what to do. It’s an old response and trigger I’ve had since childhood. (Ask my parents, they’ll tell you.) I’m sure many of you can relate. Every once in a while I have to pull my inner child’s head out of my butt long enough to realize the ideas I’ve been given are good, and it still is always my choice on what to do with the “should”. Those that gave me the idea were only trying to help and will be happy I finally took their advice. For them, it’s not about controlling anyone; it’s about helping others along. Those that give a “should”, really care. What a relief it is to come to terms with that.
Phew! Now that I’ve gotten that fearful and “should”y self-talk out of the way, I can now begin to write from the heart. Have some fun. Share little bits of me with you. I’d like to share my insights, wisdom I’ve gained form my personal experiences and from others, humor, tips and tricks and other nonsensical and/or brilliant, inspiring things. My online blogging journey starts today, with you, dear readers. Please feel free to come along with me for the ride.
So, until next week (or two, or four, or twenty…), much love.
~ Jody Pogo